eek.

my foot is all in a state of "ants crawling down my leg". i really hate that feeling of a sleepy leg. like, who came up with that phrase."my foot fell asleep" i wasnt even aware that different parts of our body took separate naps. crazy huh. well thats what im feeling right about now. my left foot fell asleep and i am now trying to shake it awake. i really hate that whole tingly feeling that you get when you move your foot. it gives me the "eek" feeling. blah blah. imma take a walk now.

lol. looky me

one day after heading home from the gym i took out my phone and took a picture of myself. and this was the result. from my phone i send it to my tumblr account. when i actually saw it i had a laugh. my sister was just like...uhh what were you thinking?? and well usually im not thinking i just do what i feel like doing. its soo dark but still you see the concept of ME. lol. i think my face is a cause for a good 'lol', in my opinion of course. but oh wells. i just saw it and thought i would post it here.

My hand.

you know what i hate the most about my body, beside everything. my hands. they're so big and dark i cant stand looking at them. they're what people would call, manly hands. they are heavy when i hit someone. they are darker than my face. its an obvious contrast with my thighs and stomach. i feel like its not me washing/touching myself. its a strangers hand. the only good thing about my hands are my nails. and thats kindly speaking because for the mere fact that my hands are so dark no beautiful nail polish looks nice on them. but i have viewable nails, therefore shareable. but no, it is not for me. i hate my hands. they're too big, too dark. and usually bigger than my boyfriends. eek!!

when boredom strikes....

what to do, what to do?? i mostly get pissed when i take a picture of myself. i want to be perfect! but im not, and its soo frustrating. because i some what wish i was...but not really. i mean all i would want in life is to come out nice in pictures but 99 percent of the time i dont. i cant make miracles. i wish i wasnt obsess of my face as i am; even though if asked i would wholeheartedly deny it. yes, thats me. im soo sleepy right now. im trying not to fall asleep because i know for a fact that when i try to sleep later on i wont be able to keep my eyes close or my mind from wandering about. i hate that. now imma look for other shareable pictures.

Would you believe me...

if i told you that i dont like my face. well its true i dont like it. i find it kind of frustrating at times. like UGH cant do anything with it. i think my face always looks creepy. thats why i take a million pictures to just end up saving one that i like. but i guess thats all do to many self conscience. i should probably get over myself. hmm, working on it.

Random Bathroom picture.

It's been a while since ive used my camera. my sister always seems to be taking it everywhere. i used to do that to. i mean i was known as camera girl but then i got my phone so i started using that as a camera, since i could send them anywhere with them and not upload them like with my camera. but yeah. one of many. enjoy!

My new mole

No one believes me. well, when i say no one i mean my mother doesn't believe me. so one day i woke up and i was like 'woah! what is that' and it was a new mole on my upper lip. right on the edge (that dark smudge you see right on top of my upper lip. that's what im talking about) and i mention it to my mother im all like 'hey, look this is new' and shes all like 'no. you've had it forever' and i was like WTF no. i think i would have notice a mole on my lip. believe me i would since i have a shit load of moles i think i would be able to notice one when it randomly showed it self. well, i asked my cousins and my sister and they just didnt know. on cousin agreed with me but i believe he just said that so i could shut up. and then my other cousin said i was gonna get cancer. ugh. i just want someone to say that i have a new mole. so i could make up my mind that im not going crazy. thee end :)

JackO N Me

my sister is a big fan of Kid Kudi and i am a some what fan of Green Day, i mean at one point i was pretty obsessed but then i sort of got over it. but i still think theyre a great band. i mean come on its GREEN DAY :) anywho, we were walking and she was taking pictures and this was one of many. she proclaims shes a good photographer but really. my camera is crappy so it does what it can. i guess i just like this picture. and then i notice our t shirts so i was like HA! must post this. and now i have. Cheers!!

Lex time :)

I just love this picture of me and Lex. His such a cutie and his soo adorable you just cant help but love him. His a hysterical boy and when he grows up his going to be everywhere. I see a grand future for him just because he has the personality for it. His soo caring it's overwhelming. It's always an "aww" with him because everything that comes out of his mouth is freaking cute. I just love this kid with all my heart.

And she said...

i know that u probably dnt want to hear from me but you have no idea how much i need you right now. at least to tell me how stupid i am. im sorry if i come off as pathetic. and if u dnt reply i get it. im immature. i just hope u know u were my closest friend and it broke my heart to realize that u stoped caring. im sorry. . . .
-Ana Dolores Benitez

A Night I Will Never Forget!!!

The night me and Dina were supposed to go to the movies with Luis and his friends but we didnt even end up going because instead we got high and really fucked up. and that whole night was crazy. walking home, getting stop by the police, crying my ass off. and all i wanted was to watch a fucken movie. yeah!! my fault for been stupid enough to go out with some strangers. but hey it's a story for the book :)