Breathing, Living, and Changing.: 08/01/2012

Monday, August 13

Saturday, August 11

Bubba Gump Dine

The day before my sister left to Mexico.

I went bowling with some friends tonight/morning. We played one full game and went home around 2 am. I got third place, boo. It was fun though. I had gone out to eat with Mr. Soria and then he decided he didn't want to go back home just yet so he called up some friends and we met up at Gage Bowl and spend close to two hours deciding if indeed we were gonna bowl and who was going to bowl. At the end I was up first and Cesar thought my spider-man socks were cool. Bam was trying to get extra wasted but he got caught off after his second drink. While Blocks/Jose beat us all with his 120+ score. I just reached 82, I think. Hey, at least I was right behind the top two players who had a bet going on. The high score got $10. I lost $15 by just been there. Lol. Oh well, it was cool though since it looked to be Cosmic Night and I was wearing a white shirt so it looked pretty cool. Good Night.

Friday, August 10

Learn This song

Watch "Nick 13 - All Alone" on YouTube

ScarKnee

Every scar has a story and this one is quite a story. Who would have guessed that not tying your shoes could really screw up your knee, forever.

This to the right was one of the first pictures I took of my knee after coming back from camping. I was just walking to the restroom with my sister screaming I don't know whats to a friend when all of a sudden concrete was headed my way. It was really sudden and the reason I got a really bad knee was because my shoe laces were untied and the one from my left boot got stuck on a hook from my right foot and I couldn't move my feet. And BAM down I went my right knee got most of my weigh, which is a lot, and it looked really bad since it was a road with all those little rocks put together. They look so pretty but they sure hurt like a bitch. Ha

And oh how I loved the bruising. It was quite cool. Very colorful indeed. The only bad thing is that I still have a numb part of my knee and it still hurts. But now I have another scar to add to my body. Cheers.

She is a creep

Some days

Your face is unacceptable.

My Momma :)

Nails

Chuck E Cheese

Can't seem to turn this.

Crazy

Baby A (2 months)

Always trying to make him smile.

Currently Watching

I'm obsessed. I've kind of always been though so it's okay. Lately I've been watching One Tree Hill since I stopped watching it after Leyton left *tear, tear*. I guess it was dumb to stop watching it since it was my proclaimed favorite show. But after the main reason I started watching the show left, Chad Michael Murray, I didn't see a point. I didn't think I would be that interested if that couple wasn't on it. So since I have all this lovely free time I've been watching OTH. I started on season 3 a couple of weeks back, a lot of couple of weeks actually. I bought the third season at a thrift store for $10 so I figured I should watch the seasons that I had which are 1,3,5-6. I can't remember why I started on three now, boo. Anyway, after I watch the third season I watched the fourth on Netflix and from there jumped to 5 and the 6th. I didn't actually finish watching 6 but went to the seventh season. I found it quite good so I watched it all. My favorite couple is Clay and Quin now. The thing is I will always love this show. It makes me cry regardless of my mood. I always say that when I feel like crying I watch it. Plus I love how they incorporate music into each episode. Too good. So I am in Season 8 Episode 16. I am 6 episodes away from the last season which I watched online because I hate commercials. But the finale I actually watched on TV oh the things I had to do so I could get signal on my TV. Too good too be true. So my point is that this is what I'm watching.

Midnight Madness

It's been a while since I've been here. I'm not sure how that happens. I come and go and then come and go again. But I've been thinking lately about writing and stuff. I don't actually believe I have a knack for it but wouldn't it make sense if I did. I mean the whole loving books thing and been very into other peoples perspectives. But then there's my grammar to consider and my lack of creativity. I don't believe I have it but then again how could someone know that they have it. I guess at one point I believed I had some creativity but just in the sense that I could decorate my backpack with various things or put together posters. But all those things just happened, I didn't just decide to put stuff together. It just came together well. Hmm.

Let's not get sappy now because it is quite late. Usually at this time I would be thinking in my head of something to write or just trying to entertain myself or lure myself to sleep. Which works most of the time. I just wonder how a person knows what they are good at and just know that they wouldn't mind doing some specific thing for the rest of their lives. I just don't understand how people know what they want. I don't get it. I suppose that is my personal struggle and I'll eventually grow out of it. I just feel like the years are sure passing by and it's not like I'll get them back later. I don't want to waste my time just thinking about doing something when I could be doing something. It's just hard having no reassurance. Who actually those something because they want to. Okay, pretty much everyone. But I am not everyone, I am just me. Sure at this moment I wouldn't want to be me, I would want to be a better me.

Regardless of every thought or word written down I think there is a purpose to life. I don't think we are just born to be nothing or do nothing with our lives. Well, I do understand that some of us don't have such privileges as a job, home, food or whatever is necessary to "have" a good life. But who knows maybe they are living their purpose. Agh, why must life be so complicated. Wouldn't it be so much easier to self terminate our lives. Of course I would prefer this to be painless because nobody really chooses pain. But that's dumb, how boring would life be if people had the option to end their own lives. Oh, but I'm not been realistic since people actually DO have the option to end their life. It's sad. Ugh, there I went getting out of context. My point was that we are born to be something or someone. Do whatever we want to do or change what we do for something better. Though it is not easy to reach such a point of serenity. We do get there, it is achievable. We just have to see how much we can handle. How hard do things have to get for us to make a choice or just think. What do you want to do, what is interesting, how long am I going to just be doing what I'm doing. Life could be quite boring, if you do nothing.

I AM NOT HAPPY.