When you think you can keep something up, but then realize that the hassle is just not worth it. I can keep my calendar up to date, but a blog or a tumblr? I just quickly lose interest. Tumblr had a hype, and everyone that stuck with it probably still has fun with it, but I deleted my initial account, then went and did a random account, deleted that, and once again made an account that I just browse through. It was fun at the start, but then it gets too addicting, and it becomes a bore. Life's boring anyway. Blogging has never been my hyped either. I'll do it, and be all in to it for like 2 hours, and then get over it. Wooo, then nothing. I feel liked I've done so much already with what I have written so far. Its exhausting. Or maybe I'm just tired. Who knows. I definitely don't.

I've come to realize that I am just going by. Getting by. Living by. Something by. Things have become so repetitive that they eventually become annoying. Go to work, go to sleep, go out to drink, stay home to read, watch a movie, take a nap, ignore people, think about life, think about nothing, watch Parenthood, watch stand up, spend money on nothing, just spend money, think about the past, ignore the past, meet people, forget people, drink iced coffee, and walk. Walk everywhere. I feel like I do the same thing over an over. Sure it becomes natural, but then something disturbs the "normal", and you become annoyed. Why can't it just stay the same!?!?

I hate when people lie. Why do they do it? Just don't say anything. If I had to hear a lie or nothing, I will choose NOTHING all the time. What's the point of lying? People find out the truth either way. So why must people waste their breath on it. Just own up to shit, or be real. Don't beat around the bush, don't do "white lies". Those are still constituted as lies. Anything that strays from the truth is a lie. Don't do it. Just step away. I rather have nothing.

I'm tired now. Maybe I'll do this again soon. Emphasis on the MAYBE,